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Monday, July 02, 2007

ewan..

I'm Choleric Sanguine..

Choleric corresponds to the fluid of yellow bile, the season of summer (dry and hot), and the element of fire. A person who is choleric is a doer and a leader. They have a lot of ambition, energy and drive, and try to instill it in others, and can dominate people of other temperaments, especially phlegmatic types. Many great charismatic, military and political figures were cholerics. On the negative side, they are easily angered or bad tempered.

In folk medicine, a baby referred to as "colic" is one who cries frequently and seems to be constantly angry. This is an adaptation of "choleric," although no one now would attribute the condition to bile. Similarly, a person described as "bilious" is mean-spirited, suspicious, and angry. This, again, is an adaptation of the old humour theory "choleric."

The disease Cholera gained its name from choler (bile).


Sanguine indicates the personality of an individual with the temperament of blood, the season of spring (wet and hot), and the element of air. A person who is sanguine is generally optimistic, cheerful, confident, popular, and fun-loving. He or she can be daydreamy to the point of not accomplishing anything and can be impulsive, possibly acting on whims in an unpredictable fashion. Sanguines usually have a lot of energy, but have a problem finding a way to direct the energy. This also describes the manic phase of a bipolar disorder.

I agree naman na I'm Choleric Sanguine.. pero duh??? definitely don't have bipolar disorder naman.. grabe..

ang mga nakasaad sa baba ay maaring gawa gawaan lamang,maaring katotohanan pilit ipinaparating o pagiinarte lamang..magiwan lang ng mensahe kung nais manlaman ang katotohanan..

kahit masakit tatanggapin ko..
kahit masakit tatanggapin ko na choleric sanguine ako.. 

>mamatay kana sana
wala naman ako wish na mamatay..

>FI_Ick you
huh???don't know how to curse na..

>masaya kana nga ginulo mo pa buhay ko...
oo, adik ka talaga.. masaya ka na nga.. ginugulo mo pa ko.. hmpf..
sa bagay di mo naman alam na ginugulo mo na pala ako..
guluhin mo pa ko.. ok lang sakin..
miss na kita eh.. huhuhuhu..

>hayop ka
sinong hayop???

>niloko mo kami
baka ako ang nanloko???hehehehe..

>di ka ba kontento sa isa???
di na ko pasaway.. one at a time na ko..  yung iba dyan na dalawa, tatlo tatlo.. hmpf.. masyado keo feeeling..

>isa lang ang mahal ko...at ikaw yun...
wahahaha.. *confused???!*

>playboy ka??okei lang....
i love guys who are playboy.. yung maraming nagkakagusto.. they're like trophies.. kidding.. nagababago na ko!!!

>ano yung nakita ko seo??ipaliwanag mo
nga..
ewan ko nga ba????char!di ka naman kagwapuhan..

>pwede ba layuan mo ko..
wag mo ko layuan..


>umalis ka sa harap ko...
hindi.. gusto kita makita..


>ohh...isaksak mo sa baga mo
ano ngayon kung may dinidate ka???? kung masama pa ako ngeon. ibubod ko siya sa asin at vetsin at ipriprito sa kumukulong mantika ng baboy... nagseselos ako.. nakakabwisit ka.. 


>ang sarap mo humalik
talaga lang ha??? i want to kiss you???nyakk.. sige nga halikan mo nga ko..


>may ipagtatapat ka ba saken?
magtapat ka na habang maaga.. pls.. aba?di ako forever maghihintay seo no.. actually, mukhang forever.. pero duh?ako ang babae ako ang naghihintay.. aba?!kelan ka magkakaroon ng lakas ng loob pag nakatira na ko sa ibang bansa????hello???!!magsabi ka na habang nandito ako.. peste.. magtapat ka na.. hehehehe... can't wait eh.. kasi everytime na maiisip ko kung gaano karaming time ang sinsayang naten sa pagpapakiramdaman.. aba???masyado na marami.. taon na.. i want to love you and really show you it to you.. hate loving you behind the mask of friendship.. i can endure it pero i just feel like i'm not giving it all to you.. but i will til magtapat ka.. hehehe..

>pano mo nalaman yung sekreto ko?
sinabi ko kasi eh.. pare, ang hina mo kasi eh.. 
nagsaabi na ko seo.. vulnerable pa ko nun ah.. di ka pa nagtake advantage oh... ano ba naman??

>siya ang pumatay....ako ang saksi..
nyak..

>may nagawa ba kong mali?
ewan ko ba???... bigla ka nawawala..

>i love you with all my hypothalamus...
eeeewwww.. matauhan ka na nga..

>uminom kana..try lang naman eh
i quit drinking.. and don't even think of drinking.. pag ikaw uminom.. ewan ko na lang..


to somebody i'm getting to know more..

kamusta ka naman???
naiinis na ako seo dahil basta..
kasi..
una.. isa kang malaking FLIRT..
pangalawa.. lumalandi ka lamang dahil di ka maka-move on..
pangatlo.. you think you're moving on but you're not, you think you're dealing with the problem but YOU'RE NOT..
pang-apat.. hindi solusyon ang aliwin ang sarili.. what's wrong with you??you were great in adapting, in moving on, coping.. but this time you're acting like it was third grade(you got punished and transfered to a public school..
pang-lima.. it's not about admitting you have a problem.. it's actually trying to GET OVER IT..
pang-anim.. GET HELP.. have a support group..
pang-pito.. move on now.. don't carry this baggage for another two years.. 
pang-walo.. remeber this.. this may sound cliche but this is true.. he would always be in your heart no matter what but he wouldn't be happy if you wouldn't stop grieving about his death.. celebrate his life, stop mourning on his death..

another thing..
you know you need to talk to a certain person.. she is your friend.. you were close for years.. even if you're civil with each other.. still, it would seem that you are at fault with what had happened.. you were the one who became distant.. i know that you don't like the person that she is hanging out with.. and you are trying your very beat to like this person she's hanging up with.. but that reason is not enough for you to ignore her.. talk to her.. okie??..

with boldness and sincerity,
lexie


Friday, June 08, 2007

wahahaha..

wala ako masabi.. buhay pa ako.. usto ko ng chocolates..


Monday, June 04, 2007

in spite of everything that is happening.. tawa pa rin ako ng tawa.. char.. 
let's ponder everything na nangyayari sa buhay ko..

my "wonderful" bday..
my "amazing"dad..
my "great" mom..
my bro..
my education.. bka di ako mag-aral this sem.. *no way!*
financial crisis.. *gosh.. why?!*
my spiritual life is in crisis.. *i now know why.. pero ang hirap magbasa ng bible kung pinagbabawalan ka kea..*
i'm emotionally stable.. pero mei breakdowns minsan dahil sa pag-aaral ko.. ayoko lumipat or else..
my mom..
my mom..
my mom..


nakakaiyak na.. char.. help...



Saturday, May 12, 2007

kamusta naman??!so kahapon ruthiethai texted me na ngeon ang online reg.. turns out (sinabi ko na nga ba!) na bukas pa.. kainis.. i woke up ng sobrang aga pa naman.. as in 8am..  anyway, as planned mag-OL ako ng 12am.. ayoko maubusan ng slots.. katulad nung summer.. kamusta naman?!

magkkwento na ko.. 
i'm 17 years old na.. it sucks.. my bday sucks.. 
april 26..
i stayed up late the night before and texted everybody ng "happy bday to me".. including some people living overseas.. kamusta?!p15 per text message.. so aion.. maraming nagalit dahil they all planed to call me exactly 12am.. pero naunahan ko sila.. wahahaha.. after a dozen phone calls and text message.. di ko na malayan na 5am na.. i took a nap and woke up a early for no reason at all.. sms and mms were comming in.. my phone is about to explode na.. i stayed home.. walang magawa.. walang gimik.. 'though kasama ko si ian the day before.. wala kaming plan for my bday.. then my ate grace called me up.. she asked me to have dinner with her somewhere.. i got so excited.. told my mom i'm going out.. and the unthinkable happened.. DI NIA KO PINAYAGAN.. it's my bday and i'm not allowed to go out.. GREAT!i insisted but still.. hindi pa rin ako pinayagan.. then she hit me.. what a gift?! i cried xempre.. not because she hit me but because of her cruelty of not allowing me to hang out with my ate.. i txted ate eirene and told her what happened.. after "the heart wrenching, i'm freaking alone" scene, my dad came home.. turns out mei handaan.. bday ko pla.. shocks..

april 27.. THE TALK..
i'm acting like nothing happened..that i'm absolutely had a great bday.. then, dad kept on asking me about what happened.. and i kept saying "wala".. then, ate grace called up and told me that she had a talk with mom.. so here's the exact words she told me that day.. "your mom told me that she doesn't want to have a relationship with you.. she thinks it's for the better.. she is horrified that if she will you'd ask her about your past and blame her for everything.."
and i'm like.. "hello?" so much for being a great mom.. so much for raising me well.. i got really disappointed with mom.. what's new?!but what disappointed me talga is ate grace.. she has changed into a "mini-fe".. she has the same belief as my mom.. she totally agree with mom.. it sucks.. 

so marami pa nangyari sa soap opera kung life.. marami pang revelation si ate grace about what mom believes the right way to raise me.. and i tell you.. it's pathetic.. my biological dad is as always disappointing.. and consistently insensitive.. my half brother sherwin is moving to scotland.. and guess what? i totally care about him.. 'though i've never met him..  i really want an elder brother.. it sucks.. so going back to my dad.. he's such an insensitive moron.. hehehe.. sorry for the modifiers.. anyway, i learned that my dad is still (for 18 years now..) is still in love with my mom (as i predicted).. the funny thing is.. i saw some letters he gave my mom when my mom was still living in taiwan.. and hell.. i now know where i got my verbosity.. the fine use of words.. my dad is a freaking poet.. eewww.. so not appropriate for my dad to give my mom such letters.. they're both married to somebody else.. and i love my stepdad..  so i called up dad the next day for some money.. coz i'm broke.. and i need money for my tuition.. my mom was the first one to talk to him.. and as always they were always fighting for the most pathetic reason.. then, my mom gave me the phone.. then, he suddenly changed his voice.. he sound so caring and he seem to really love me.. so we talked a little bit.. and yup.. as always.. i slipped.. i shouldn't have told him some stuffs.. so whatever.. my mom thinks it's a wake up call for dad.. so in the end of the dad drama is i learned i'm the favorite child.. akalain mo un??di ko narararamdaman.. and that dad feels so guilty of not being a dad to me.. wow!akailain mo un?!as always, i prayed.. and pour out all i felt that day about all the drama that's happening.. and i feel so much better.. i'm so blessed.. 
i miss serving god.. and doing church stuffs.. attending church.. and leading bible study groups.. i miss sharing.. and i've got  a lot to share nanaman.. my life isn't so bad.. i think that i'm living alife that is better than anybody wishes it to be.. i'm living a life that god always told me it would be.. rocky but blessed..

i resent the fact that some people didn't greet me on time.. katulad ni kua arman.. hehehe..

next time na yung round two ng mga drama na nangyayari sa bukay ko



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